Posted September 14, 2018 04:09:59 I’m still not sure why I was so upset when my son was born.
I’ve been in a loving relationship with my husband and our son, but at the same time, we were on the cusp of our own divorce.
For months, we had been preparing to split up, but the plan never quite materialized.
In November, after we had taken a weekend to visit our son at the hospital, we decided to get together and have a bed time story.
It was such a small thing to me, but it was such an amazing moment in our lives.
I felt so blessed.
I’m not sure if I ever wanted to share it with anyone else.
And then I thought, why can’t I share it now?
There’s no way we could possibly do this with a baby on the way.
I was worried that I’d never get to do it again.
So I began to look for other stories to share with my son, as well as to write them down.
The story I found on Facebook resonated with me: A father and his newborn son share a bed.
“It’s just a normal day,” he said as the room fell silent.
“It’s been so long since I’ve slept in a bed, so I guess I’m going to sleep in a different one tomorrow.”
The baby was quiet and quiet.
“I think it’ll be okay,” he reassured.
“Theres so much you can do to be happy.”
The moment had me thinking about the many ways our marriage can go wrong.
As I looked at the pictures of my son sleeping on the floor, I realized that I have a lot to learn from him.
As a mother, I have so many reasons to be angry with my child, and I also know that the world can change overnight.
I thought about my own son.
How many times he’s had a meltdown, lost his temper, or acted out in a dangerous way.
It seems so easy to feel sorry for him and try to make it all better.
I wish I had done the same for my son.
I know that he’s in great hands with the help of his caregivers.
But I also knew that I was going to have to face it, even if I never wanted to.
My husband and I are very happy and content.
But as I look back on this time, I see that I didn’t share this story with him.
My son was my love, but he was also my life.
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Topics:child-abuse,child-protection,children,family-and-children,violence,united-statesFirst posted September 14.